A very wise teacher once told me that negative energy will seek you out when you are trying to do good and come into or grow within your spiritual power. When I heard it, I didn’t really understand but I believe that I now do very personally. Through journaling and meditation I have realized that at these specific times in my life I have been challenged the most in my faith. The challenges have come from all angles, anything to throw me off my game: financial hardship, family disputes, illness, injury, etc.
Some close people will say to me, that I am living wrong or that God (referring to their Christian god) is angry with what I am doing and is punishing me. I feel so blessed to have had this wise woman’s words spoken to me in warning back then because had I not…..I may have believed the people who think I am doing something wrong in believing and practicing as I do. The ones who try to put little echoes of doubt in my mind and my ear. Instead I can see that it is just another way that the negative energy is using people to get to me.
Because of my wise teacher, I see this negative energy taking one blow after another as a bit of a compliment. I am a threat to it and it is trying to knock me back. It feels my growth and seeks to stop it, which gives me motivation to move through it and beyond. I know that I will turn a corner and the dawn will be so bright with possibility. We must choose how we will look at the challenges put before us and whether those will stunt our growth and cause us to hide or whether we will allow our inner warrior to gain momentum from them and soar.
The pagan path isn’t one for the faint of heart. It isn’t easy and it hasn’t been for many years. Its full of criticism, misunderstanding and judgment. To follow this path we must be strong in our beliefs every day, not just when our body and mind is well. You see the God/Goddess is all you do, when you look out the window, even just driving your car. You find their presence and work in good times and in the bad, through success and through trials and tribulation. It is not only a belief, it is a way of living your life.