During my shadow work this past week I had this amazing (to me anyways) revelation about myself, I am my most artistic during the crone season. I have previously written about how my resolution this year was to work on myself through deeper shadow work. Feeling closed off and alone I didn’t start out feeling too useful in this quest but soon I realized many important things.
One, I meditate best while I am crafting! I can lose hours wrapped up in my physical work and all the while I come out of it very “Zen”. It is because during that time I have also been working hard mentally on a different level then the surface level of my work. This was very important to realize because the past several months my normal meditations just stopped working for me. Everyone meditates differently and the importance lies in actually doing the meditation work (well and its quality) not in how you are able to do it.
Secondly, it is during this shadow work phase that I am the absolute most artistic. I have heard artists talk about being in the zone and wanting to be left alone before they lose their motivation and I didn’t understand that. Now I do! I have “dead” periods where all my ideas are crap or nonexistent. Then all of a sudden BOOOOOM it hits me and ideas flow so fast I can barely keep up. Everything I touch turns out amazing and I can barely finish one thing before I am being drawn to a whole new project that turns out just as well. I have learned that I need to take advantage of these moments when they happen because I never know how long they will last and they go as fast as they come. I wonder why this is so. Maybe because I am channeling the inner most part of my spiritual being? I don’t know….further food for the fire.
I have also realized that these spurts of artistic ability rarely come in the Spring and the Summer. It is during that time that I express myself in nature and in completely different forms of art. Ones that involve growing, harvesting, etc. These revelations are absolutely vital to Cynnamon Charmed and may just change the way that we do things this next year. Focusing on my strong suits while they are strongest and not stressing on new ideas when ideas aren’t flowing naturally. In order to bring my best to my followers I need to focus on how to access the best I have to offer and this is a step in the right direction.
Thirdly, the strangest revelation I had was that I AM AN ARTIST! I refer to myself as many things, a wife, mother, sister, daughter, friend, business owner, herbalist, writer, blogger, etc. BUT never as an artist. That never crossed my mind. I just do what I do and I assumed it was ordinary stuff anyone could do. That one title and idea of myself, made many pieces fall into place. And so I continue my shadow work as the owner, writer, herbalist and artist of Cynnamon Charmed and just another woman on her spiritual journey.